...and the sun just keeps shining
I can't believe it's been a week since I wrote last. Valentine's Day was a week ago. It seems like ages, thank goodness.
Last week was mostly a good week.
I cut the ties with the dying relationship. Finally. I let the other off the hook of my expectations, and ended up giving myself my freedom back in the process.
It's a wonderful thing to feel in control of your own life again.
Now if only I could stop dreaming about him.
Life does go on though, and there is so much hope out there. The sun has been shining relentlessly for the last number of days, and I love it. There are buds popping out on the trees, and crocuses and snowdrops blooming everywhere. It's just a matter of time before we start seeing the beautiful pink and white buds of the plum and cherry trees.
I made another important decision for my life last week, and that was to allow myself to do more of the things that I enjoy.
I learned to run just over two years ago, and went straight into training for and running 1/2 marathons. I was really enjoying the sense of accomplishment.
The natural progression was to start training for a marathon, which I signed up for this winter.
The problem is I'm not enjoying anything about it.
Last year at this time, I was struggling with depression, and along with my dog, running was my saviour. It made me get out and do the distances that had been set out for me.
This year, I just can't find the same motivation. I'm not enjoying it. It's as simple as that.
Time for a break.
To train for such distances, there are many aspects of life that must be adjusted, and in some cases, given up. Things like going dancing on the weekend, or staying out late Saturday night. Although the running group was very social, it was interrupting my other social life. And I want it back.
The decision to give up the marathon training was not easy, but now that it's been made, it's very freeing.
Just like in giving up on my dying relationship, a world of possibilities has opened up for me.
What a wonderful feeling, and a wonderful time of year to feel it.
The world is full of potential!
Last week was mostly a good week.
I cut the ties with the dying relationship. Finally. I let the other off the hook of my expectations, and ended up giving myself my freedom back in the process.
It's a wonderful thing to feel in control of your own life again.
Now if only I could stop dreaming about him.
Life does go on though, and there is so much hope out there. The sun has been shining relentlessly for the last number of days, and I love it. There are buds popping out on the trees, and crocuses and snowdrops blooming everywhere. It's just a matter of time before we start seeing the beautiful pink and white buds of the plum and cherry trees.
I made another important decision for my life last week, and that was to allow myself to do more of the things that I enjoy.
I learned to run just over two years ago, and went straight into training for and running 1/2 marathons. I was really enjoying the sense of accomplishment.
The natural progression was to start training for a marathon, which I signed up for this winter.
The problem is I'm not enjoying anything about it.
Last year at this time, I was struggling with depression, and along with my dog, running was my saviour. It made me get out and do the distances that had been set out for me.
This year, I just can't find the same motivation. I'm not enjoying it. It's as simple as that.
Time for a break.
To train for such distances, there are many aspects of life that must be adjusted, and in some cases, given up. Things like going dancing on the weekend, or staying out late Saturday night. Although the running group was very social, it was interrupting my other social life. And I want it back.
The decision to give up the marathon training was not easy, but now that it's been made, it's very freeing.
Just like in giving up on my dying relationship, a world of possibilities has opened up for me.
What a wonderful feeling, and a wonderful time of year to feel it.
The world is full of potential!
posted by Grace | 1:49 p.m.
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